As in, pretty myself up. But on the inside; not so much what might make me drop-dead anything to anyone else.
As everyone is talking and writing about New Year's resolutions, I've been reflecting over this past year and how I currently feel about myself. I'm in the middle of a small lull in my side business, and it's giving me much-needed time to breathe and think and strategize. You see, I've been feeling downright awful about myself over the past four months. Longer than that actually, if I'm being completely honest. And it's not just the usual, obvious things that women generally lament. My issue is that I know full-well how to take care of myself, but I'm just not doing it. Not hardly a speck. Sure, I slap on makeup every morning, and I do make an attempt with my mop of a hairstyle. But there are other things I've let go by the wayside - like ample sleep; eating well; working out; heck, shaving my legs more than once a week. And I'm tired of feeling ugly for not doing them. I yearn to feel feminine and alert and, well, pretty again.
So, with the New Year beginning, I'm putting myself on the track to Pretty Up. And I don't care what the rest of the world thinks of how I look on the outside. This is all about feeding my soul some beauty. I'm going to do the things - no matter how small - that make me feel like a girl. A pretty girl.
Today? Today, I work out. I will bust my shoulders and quads to the Jillian Michaels dvd, and I'll (stiffly) walk away feeling so proud of myself for doing a small thing to feel good inside.